WHO I WANT TO BE

As I mentioned in my last several posts, I have been on a journey of self-discovery and mindfulness. To this end I am actually taking a few courses and also participating in a 21 day challenge.

I absolutely believe that I AM who I am meant to be RIGHT now. I also believe that as a life-long learner I will continue evolving until the day I cease to exist in this life. I think that sometimes life throws things at us that force us to grow and change. I also believe that we must be proactive and consciously choose to grow, learn and evolve. We MAKE that happen. It does not just happen TO us.

None of us are perfect. We all have things about ourselves that we would like to improve on or change. It is up to each of us to make that happen. Very little happens to us without our choice. If an “accident” or event does occur without our choice, as it sometimes does , we have the choice about how we react to that event.

We create our lives by the choices we make and we change our lives in the same way. Anyone who believes that someone else can make his or her life better, will never be happy. We need to do the work to make ourselves and our lives better.

We are who we are supposed to be right now. If we want change we need to make it happen and not wait for it to happen to us. It takes some of us longer to learn this than others, but it is essential that we understand this concept.

The following is my journey on my latest guided imagery exercise. It is called, “Looking Forward”.

This is MY world of hopes and dreams. I am living my best life as my best self. In this life I am feeling very happy. I am safe and secure. I have the power to do whatever I want or need to do in order to live my life as I deserve to live it. I feel totally empowered and very strong.

I am slim and attractive and, although I am almost 72 years old, I feel young and strong, both physically and emotionally. I am very self-confident. I know that I am not only loved, but that people (most of them) genuinely like and respect me. I have many people in my life who are truly my friends, a few of them are very special friends and have a huge impact on my life by adding so much joy to every day.

I am very close to my family. Even though we are few in numbers, we are very big on love. I spend as much time with my grandchildren and son as possible.

I am with the man I love. He adds such joy to my life. We are both so happy with our relationship. Although it may not be what most people call a “traditional” relationship, it is exactly what we both want at this stage of our lives.

I am living in a home that I chose and have made it my sanctuary. I always feel at peace here. I am surrounded by the few possessions that are really meaningful to me.

Although I officially “retired” I am never idle. I am an author who is well respected by my peers. I am also a member of the Board where I live. I love being part of the group that makes our building so very special. I love that I have the opportunity to help so many people and make their lives better. I am always laughing and enjoying my life. I love being able to make others laugh even when they are dealing with difficult situations. It takes a lot to make me angry. I do not like injustice or bigotry and hatred of people who might be “different” in some way. I don’t hold grudges and I am finally able to not feel stressed by things I cannot control. I have learned that there are many ways to create calmness within myself.

What I have learned from this guided meditation journey:

I have the power to create any life I envision for myself. I can be whoever and whatever I want to be.

The MOST important thing I learned on today’s journey is that for the most part, I am already living my ideal life. There are very few changed I need to make at this time and I have the power to make them happen. This exercise made me realize how very grateful I am for having this life and all the amazing people in it. It helped me to see that I am truly happy! Once my health issues are resolved, hopefully soon, I will be who I wish to be…for now.

One thought on “WHO I WANT TO BE

  1. Jane says:

    What a fantastic journey

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